Sorry if I rub off the wrong way, but I am here to admit that I am beautiful.  Last night at the Girls time at the retreat we talked about girls and beauty.  Too many girls worry about how they look and look up to the so called standard of beauty.  What is beauty?  The 36-34-36, blond, blue-eyed, girl or the average sized, brown haired, pasty skinned girl?  Let's now throw in a curve ball: The blond is self centered and only cares about her self and the brunette is seen helping others or off to the side talking to someone?  Now you are having a hard time choosing.  (But remember, blonds are not always self-centered princesses, I know a good few that are the greatest people.  I am just making a point.)

But girls are ugly to themselves.  We are always caught telling ourselves, you are not pretty enough for that guy or you are too fat to show your face in public.  We should stop downing ourselves and yell out "Yeah, I am pretty!"  or "I am beautiful, and I don't care!"

I know, hard thing to admit right?  If a girl says that she knows that she is beautiful she is seen as self-centered or narcissistic.  But who flippin cares any way?!  I know I have my flaws, but I should accept them.  Some cannot be corrected so I am going to live with them.

GOD made us as beautiful beings and GOD wants us to let our inner beauty to shine.  In order to shine, we need to put GOD's word first and put him first in our lives.

If I sound odd or conceited....I don't care.   I am putting my foot down because too many young women are filling their lives with alcohol, drugs, food (or no food), or sex; not the love of GOD and the love for GOD.  We women need to stick together and lift our spirits up when we are down and out.  Like Sarah Wofford said: "Beauty is skin deep, but ugly can radiate from the bones."

White as Snow by Jon Foreman

Have mercy on me, oh God
According to Your unfailing love
According to Your great compassion
Blot out my transgressions

Would You create in me a clean heart
Oh God
Restore in me
The joy of Your salvation

The sacrifices of our God
Are a broken and contrite heart
Against you and you alone have I sinned

Would You create in me a clean heart
Oh God
Restore in me
The joy of Your salvation

Wash me white as snow
And I will be made whole
Wash me white as snow

Would You create in me a clean heart
Oh God
Restore in me
The joy of Your salvation

This song just speaks to me in my opinion.  It has such beauty with the lyrics and the music melding together.  I love how the music swells right before the chorus.  It gives the feeling of anticipation and the feeling of this is what you have been waiting for.  Also, the message I get out of this song is wonderful...seriously wonderful.  I would love to be white as snow all the time, pure like my Savior and even God.  I know though that I am going to get that small stain on my white t-shirt of life and Jesus is my Clorox bleach to make sure I am clean.  Wow, weird analogy, but it makes sense in my head.

Oh my freaking gosh!!!  I feel like I am failing today's youth some way.  I am a fan of the blog Cute with Chris and his latest post is here: Teen Rage and 14-year-old letter. (There is two because the letter is added in as a link.

Oh my!  The first girl trying to defend Zac Efron makes herself look like a total whiny baby and the full letter from the 14-year-old (with a very weird drawing of the guy being defended) is not coherent.  I feel like what is going to happen to the world if we have people actually writing like this and that I have to give the kids A++ because they did it right when I start my teaching career.  I don't want to give an A to this crap:
OmG yOu GuYz! Y0U r SoO mEeN! sErIoUsLy!StOp AnNoYiNg HiM! ItS nOt HiS fAuLt HiS sO kUtE u GuYz R jUsT jEaLuS lEeVe HiM aLoNe!!1

Okay...I fudged on how it was typed, but still, I don't want to say: "Good job on doing the upper and lower case letters, A!"  I will go down fighting before I give a piece of crap like that a passing grade.  I thought that chat-sp33k wasn't going to mess up the world English system but NO!  I was so wrong.  Yes I do the occasional "OMGWTFBBQ" "lawlz" "GAH!" and "n00b" and I do it in right company and in the correct usage.  I don't do this in everyday life I know.  I make sure my wall posts, notes, and profile on facebook is readable, also my MySpace is clean and has correct grammar.  I even on here try to keep it correct!  GAH!

When will we all learn that we need to work harder on making ourselves sound better than this.  This is when I like to say "Stupid Americans" and "I wish I was born in England."  Yes, I do sometimes type and talk incorrectly.  I have a terrible accent when I say flyer (sounds like flower sometimes) and I have a hard time self-correcting.

This is when I just want to tell the world to read a book.  Read "Lord of the Rings".  Read "Harry Potter".  Read "Gathering Blue".  Read "An Abundance of Katherines".  Read something with substance!  Put down your Tabloids and magazines about how to "fake it" (you know what I mean).  I guess I need to rest and do something else.  Like facebook stalk someone or go to my favorite message board and post about it there.  I bid thee a good day and keep your head in the clouds.

~LunaCourtney


PS: Okay, this is getting posted on MySpace even though I posted on my Xanga.  I know I have more readers over on MySpace.

PPS: I might as well add in some good in the world.  We should all know that we are loved by someone with more power than us.  I know I shouldn't rant or rave, but that is what I do best.  I just need to count my blessings that I am not the one getting bashed.  If you want to defend someone, have the dignity to type it right...or say it right, doesn't matter.  *turns off the judge button*